Reflections on the saddle

I don't know about you, but I identify with people who in the Bible who are cowards. I most of the time will try my hardest to appear that I'm fearless, but don't be fooled. I'm scared shitless. I've recently started to teach and lead again in our career ministry in Jacksonville. As I've been teaching I've never remembered having to be confronted with so much fear.I will admit that I'm not the best orator in the world. I have a hard time holding conversations most of the time. Often I wonder, why do I sign up to do something I'm not naturally good at? This past week was amazing for me because I was sub-par, and the Holy Spirit still showed up and people had encounters with God. As a group we are on a process of following Jesus I am included. It's amazing to see God helping me have right perspective and trust in his leading and move when I'm obedient. The pressure is slowly coming off me as I trust him more. I'm on the same Journey.

Baptism of Jesus

Waiting is a hard thing to do. The middle is never fun, but doing nothing can be just as faithful. I always want go, it feels good. Part of this is good. This is the way God made us. When heaven was perfect on earth, God gave Adam a job to do. He gave Adam something to accomplish because through this we worship God and experience his pleasure. He also, gave Adam a wife. Both of these can be jacked up when they are out of order. The waiting period is always revealing. God brews up all our mixed motives and its a great/brutal process where God uses our incontentment to make us aware of the hurting places he wants to heal.

Anyways, yesterday I was reading the story of Jesus's baptism, which must have been an amazing thing to witness. God rips open heaven, a dove flies out of it and God speaks to the world that this is his loved son in whom he is well please. This has always been a commissioning chapter in the Bible for me. I've always said yes, now hes going to lay the law down and shake the whole world up. As I read it again this week I was reminded of how God calls him a son before he does a thing. Wow!!! God is pleased with him just because of his relationship. For most of us thats the hardest thing to believe. Everyone of our other relationships seem to be opposite than this.

Jesus just lives out of this reality. He loves his father and just responds to his spirit over and over again. This week I was reminded while Jesus was God he was limited as a human. Even though he was fully human, God's spirit was what made him powerful. He just responded when God was moving like anyone of us can. It was a bit of a commissioning for me this week. As I'm taking steps out in faith again God lovingly told me that he is with me and he will do the "work." I'm a son, and he is the king. His burden is light and his yoke is easy. We will do even greater things than he did. His spirit is on us to preach and set free the captives.

On top of all of that I have a great team of people helping me launch, "the mix," our career ministry. God is doing great things in our city. I can't wait to see lives changed. Lets do this!